drunk, tequila, hugs, kisses, the lock of eyes.
your twenties are about falling in love. perhaps not your twenties. perhaps just life in general, huh.
life is about feelings. the peaks. the heart beating, the hand-holding, the chuckle of laughter as it ruptures from your stomach, as you laugh so hard tears start to fall. it is holding your best friend’s hand as she walks down the aisle, it is taking walks in foreign cities, falling in love with songs as the midnight silence washes over you. it is looking at the night sky, looking at stars falling into the abyss, and watching movies over and over again until you feel something.
life is about feelings.
it is feeling the peak moments, feeling the extremes but also feeling the mundane, and being very okay, very satisfied with the every day.
it is the lights and booze of the friday nights, but also the warmth and sanctuary of sunday mornings. it’s your dog’s furry body snuggled next to yours, the smell of pancakes and eggs sizzling in the pan, the clean sheets and the sun as it strikes onto you, mid-day already.
it’s alarms on weekdays, corporate lunches, and small talk with coworkers, but somehow finding so much pleasantness, so much joy in these small interactions. it is working hard on something, putting out something you’ve been so scared of, so scared to let people’s eyes fall on. it is exhibiting your work, and feeling so good, so satisfied with the act of it all.
it is nerves on ecstasy, piqued by curiosity in conversations with strangers, letting their aura dye your fabric of color and falling deep and deeper.
it is walking on a tightrope for the first time, the millionth time, and being just as scared every time, but doing it anyway because it’s worth it. because you are on the other side. because he’s on the other side. because it’s worth it to do things you’re scared of. it’s worth it to call him, go for the hug, go for the kiss, ask him out, ask that girl out. it’s worth it to take a leap of chance, a leap of faith.
get drunk and get wasted and get sober and feel good about everything the next day.
life is about feelings, but it is about so much more, too. life is about loving.
life is about living.