It was the summer of love
A delicate daydream
And for a couple of months
It felt like we were 18, yeahSummer of Love - Shawn Mendes
Dear Readers,
It’s been awhile.
I’ve been struggling a lot recently so have found it difficult to be creative as well.
I originally wrote several other drafts, but it was mainly about feeling depressed and stuck, and I didn’t want to share such a negative mood on my newsletter. So instead of that, why not write about how excited I am about summer?
Even though summers in Taiwan tend to be very hot and humid, I still enjoy them. I enjoy this season in general, maybe because as a kid, I grew up associating summers with breaks, holidays, and a general carefree vibe.
Summer was also when I started this newsletter, and when I decided that I wanted to be better, and so is quite significant to me.
Can you believe it’s already been a year?
I don’t even feel like I’ve grown that much or much has changed, even though obviously a lot has happened.
I’ve traveled to different places. I’ve moved out, moved back in, developed a better relationship with my parents, even switched a therapist, and got a new job, but I still feel pretty much the same internally.
I am still deeply insecure, still don’t have a social circle, and still don’t know what to do as my job or what to study for grad school, and I just feel lost in general.
But people around me have just told me to not think so much. Just do what makes you happy, enjoy everyday life, and focus on the present. Try not to worry too much about the future.
So that’s also what I’ve been trying to do, I guess.
On the weekends, I’ve been trying to hang out with friends. The other week, we went to the pier, and I was surprised at how nice the summer night breeze felt along the waters.
I also went to a rooftop bar last week, and it felt pretty good. I also liked the music and colors.
What are you guys up to recently? Hope you’re enjoying your time too, wherever you are.
Love,
margherita-x